Lost love; love I thought I had.

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Love alone is not enough to keep us alive. There was some likelihood that you and I would eventually learn how to let our love grow for one another, though.

Till then, feel free to leave at any time. I'll go to any lengths to show myself the love I deserve. I'm going to stop waiting on you and instead envelop myself in the love I thought I had with you.

I see my existence as extremely real, even though you may be a complete ghost. I've given up trying to put us back together. I am complete without you, and even after you discarded me like I was last week's trash, I will always be a gorgeous, amazing mess. 


Written on : April 22, 2021

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